Night falls, can’t sleep
No hustling and bustling
To keep me busy
To keep my mind from wandering,
Wondering, Why?
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I know the answer –
Freedom. Space. Independence.
But it doesn’t make it easy.
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I lay awake thinking
Thinking who’ll be
Laying beside you
In years to come,
Who’ll be kissing you,
Who’ll be touching you,
Loving you.
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Night falls, tears come
Sobs choked in my throat
Drops falling from my eyes
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Don’t think about it,
I say to myself.
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During the day,
It’s busy –
All the people
All of the animals
Looking for housing
Closing joint accounts
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Keep the mind working
Running 100 miles per hour
But at night?
It stops.
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I can only think
Think of what might have been
If only thing were different
If only things were better
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A shot of tequila
Burning down my throat
Is my only hope
To quiet the tears
To quiet the thoughts
To quiet myself,
So I can sleep
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I love you so much
Words so strong and powerful
Words with so much feeling
Pain. Pain when dreams are
Crushed.
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Written by Beth Malbon
April 23, 1996
